I pop a pill all by myself, can’t shake the thrill it gives me
It calms my shakes
The doors are locked, I’m on my own
I tell myself I’m not alone
And I’m not lying, it’s my fault I’m this way
I walk to work almost every day
It’s a waste of time, but I got paid
I woke up last night on my Floor, with one hand on the door
And the others gripping empty bottles
So here I am, a deadbeat taking pennies out the fountain
Selling out my name
So here I go, running from the things that pull me down
Selling out my name
I don’t want to go, but I know I can’t stay long here because I don’t belong here
Why won’t you say my name? Is it because we aren’t the same as when we first were friends
Like posters on my wall I ripped down
I know that I tried my best
It wasn’t enough, but I know that life isn’t fair
Fuck you, I’m trying to be something I’m not
I know I’m a mess and I’m sorry that I wasn’t there